restore our fortunes, O LORD

the other day in our intervarsity prayer meeting prior to our large group, we began to intercede for the campus, specifically for women, to be set free from issues with self image and sexual brokenness. we began to seek God's heart for His daughters consumed in bondage to trying to sell their bodies because they have no worth, because they do not know who they are nor to Whom they belong to.

the spirit of trevail prayer fell upon a few of us in the room. and they began to weep as we began to feel the pain our Father feels when He sees His daughters chase after broken cisterns--things that do not satisfy; that it pains the Father's heart to the point of tears as He watches His daughters struggle to know their inherent beauty, value, and worth because they do not know that they are daughters of the King Most High.

for the past 4 years of praying for UCSD, i haven't seen as much trevail prayer as i have been seeing this year. i don't believe that there is anything that makes trevail prayer "better" or more "powerful" than tear-free prayer, but i do believe something powerful is unleashed when we tap into God's heart to the point when we are moved to tears. i do believe there is power when our hearts are broken for what breaks God's heart, to the point when we are moved to tears.

LORD, break our hearts for what breaks Yours

i was reminded by the psalm i had read the previous night, His promise not only for Zion, but for UCSD as well.

when the LORD restored the fortunes of Zion,
we were like those who dream.
then our mouth was filled with laughter,
and our tongue with shouts of joy;
then they said among the nations,
"the LORD has done great things for them."
the LORD has done great things for us;
we are glad.

Restore our fortunes, O LORD,
like streams in the Negeb!
those who sow in tears shall reap with shouts of joy!
he who goes out weeping bearing the seed for sowing,
shall come home with shouts of joy,
bringing his sheaves with him.

psalm 126